I sat there almost a couple of minutes, thinking what to do. I pulled the bed back. Now I could see it clearly....the blood, which flowed out from its beak, had formed a small pool beneath its head on the floor. There were other red spots on the floor nearbyI couldn’t look at that sight for long. I could feel a swell of emotions about to erupt from within….. sadness, anger, frustration! I cursed myself for leaving the fan on, at the same time keeping the windows wide-open…..i killed that bird!!I sat on the chair, but for a while I couldn’t think clearly. I felt guilty. Its me who was responsible for its death. Murderer!!I’d heard people shooting down pigeons, but hadn’t given it much thought. But when I saw that motionless body a yard away from my feet, I couldn’t imagine how anyone can do this to it…the feeling I had was beyond words to express. What do I do now?I had to somehow bury it somewhere. Bury?.. I cant do that around here…At last I made my mind to give it a watery grave. After searching for sometime, I found a plastic cover in my cupboard. I took an old newspaper, covered it over the body, wrapped around it, took it and placed it inside the plastic cover and closed its opening. God! It was as light as a cotton ball….the lightness of the dead body further heaved my heart.Slowly I walked out of the room, climbed down the stairs out into the porch and towards the seaside. Band team was practising their daily lessons, playing something, which I couldn’t quite figure out.,…..They barely noticed me walking past them towards the concreted seaside. I untied the plastic cover and threw it into the water…and stood there as the waves carried away poor bird.As I walked back to my room, I stopped at the bottom of my hostel and looked towards my room on the third floor. There, on the open window sill of my room, I saw a lone pigeon sitting, peeping inside…..could be the soul mate of the gone one, still waiting for it to come back..I wished I could tell it that I was sorry….
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
A true story....
I sat there almost a couple of minutes, thinking what to do. I pulled the bed back. Now I could see it clearly....the blood, which flowed out from its beak, had formed a small pool beneath its head on the floor. There were other red spots on the floor nearbyI couldn’t look at that sight for long. I could feel a swell of emotions about to erupt from within….. sadness, anger, frustration! I cursed myself for leaving the fan on, at the same time keeping the windows wide-open…..i killed that bird!!I sat on the chair, but for a while I couldn’t think clearly. I felt guilty. Its me who was responsible for its death. Murderer!!I’d heard people shooting down pigeons, but hadn’t given it much thought. But when I saw that motionless body a yard away from my feet, I couldn’t imagine how anyone can do this to it…the feeling I had was beyond words to express. What do I do now?I had to somehow bury it somewhere. Bury?.. I cant do that around here…At last I made my mind to give it a watery grave. After searching for sometime, I found a plastic cover in my cupboard. I took an old newspaper, covered it over the body, wrapped around it, took it and placed it inside the plastic cover and closed its opening. God! It was as light as a cotton ball….the lightness of the dead body further heaved my heart.Slowly I walked out of the room, climbed down the stairs out into the porch and towards the seaside. Band team was practising their daily lessons, playing something, which I couldn’t quite figure out.,…..They barely noticed me walking past them towards the concreted seaside. I untied the plastic cover and threw it into the water…and stood there as the waves carried away poor bird.As I walked back to my room, I stopped at the bottom of my hostel and looked towards my room on the third floor. There, on the open window sill of my room, I saw a lone pigeon sitting, peeping inside…..could be the soul mate of the gone one, still waiting for it to come back..I wished I could tell it that I was sorry….
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youre a very kind hearted person liju. i can tel u because same happened with me with just the difference of my mother telling me instead to shut the window and i took just a few second more than normal to get up but by then already a sparrow was inside the room with the fan running so now i had to shut the fan first but as i turned around to reached the switch which took me even longer the circling sparrow got hit even with the low blade speed. we used to watch this pair of sparrows everyday in the balcony just outside the room feeding their newly borns in the nest. i was pale to see the other one still sitting on the grille waiting for his mate to come back. i could hear the soft, confused and scared chirping of the male looking towards the room. and then i could feel the pain of both inside me so much so that made me cry and curse for not acting fast to save a life. it was the seriousness of the consequence that i didnt imagine and obey my mothers words immediately. everyday after that i watched the dedicted father bird fetch and feed the young ones alone that tore me further. i used to think im a kind person because i dont kill or hurt intentionally but there was still a lesson left for me to learn that im still responsible if i can see, think and act to prevent an unrecoverable loss.
HEy !!!
Do I ned to coment on this.....
I think I ve already conveyed it to u when u had nt even posted it online...
Just brilliant!!!!
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